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Old 30-09-2018, 09:06 PM   #826
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Today, I experienced a new low. I asked for permission to go out, near I said. When I saw the many buses heading to different destinations, I decided I needed to go somewhere far. I took a new route I never knew of. I want to run away from all that I know of because I realised that I can know, and even understand but after numerous years, still find myself far from accepting. Even farther in fact. I thought that the lessons learnt from exposing myself to every element I dread out there would be my safety net to catch me from falling deeper into the abyss. I now know that I can never be prepared enough for when it hits. This bus driver drives really fast. The bus is shaking and I kind of like it a little...

I guess I really want to feel nearer to you, wherever that is. How many years has it been since it all happened? Plenty of times I looked back to that year but I never managed to pinpoint to a date that would explain all that I'm experiencing now. I wonder if that meant that it was all wrong right from the very start. And that thought kills a little of me every time. There's no room for regret because there probably was no way for anything to turn out differently. But still, I really hope that I could have had it in me to.

I know I got to move on. I understand I can never look back anymore. I have really progressed so far now. But everytime I take a look back, I see how that day will always be round the corner if I mistake any step. Maybe I never really progressed afterall. Right at this point, I just want time to come to a standstill so that I can stay put and rest. I don't want time to remind me that I ought to keep going otherwise that meant I'm a weakling. I don't want time to remind me that staying put meant holding everyone back as that day unfolds again. I want time to stop so that only I exist as everyone awaits me to build myself up to continue going. Too bad time waits for no man.

This free fall is getting scarier, but somehow I will still have to deal with it. It's always a gamble against life, hopefully I'll win again this time.

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Old 30-09-2018, 09:07 PM   #828
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then cannot liao..im too horny



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Old 30-09-2018, 09:09 PM   #829
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Use both hands.
not so big rooks rike moi will be FA for awhile
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:09 PM   #830
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Must be able to accept no doing it before marriage!
Don't worry, there is a loop hole in the Bible. Can stay virgin, cherry won't be not popped. Hehehe butt hole loop hole.
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:10 PM   #831
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Sounds like mepick.
Just nice the age match also.
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:12 PM   #832
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Sounds like mepick.
Just nice the age match also.
It’s not mepick!
She is an extrovert and loud person haha. Cheerful.
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:12 PM   #833
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no kaki or just sian



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Old 30-09-2018, 09:13 PM   #834
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:13 PM   #835
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Today, I experienced a new low. I asked for permission to go out, near I said. When I saw the many buses heading to different destinations, I decided I needed to go somewhere far. I took a new route I never knew of. I want to run away from all that I know of because I realised that I can know, and even understand but after numerous years, still find myself far from accepting. Even farther in fact. I thought that the lessons learnt from exposing myself to every element I dread out there would be my safety net to catch me from falling deeper into the abyss. I now know that I can never be prepared enough for when it hits. This bus driver drives really fast. The bus is shaking and I kind of like it a little...

I guess I really want to feel nearer to you, wherever that is. How many years has it been since it all happened? Plenty of times I looked back to that year but I never managed to pinpoint to a date that would explain all that I'm experiencing now. I wonder if that meant that it was all wrong right from the very start. And that thought kills a little of me every time. There's no room for regret because there probably was no way for anything to turn out differently. But still, I really hope that I could have had it in me to.

I know I got to move on. I understand I can never look back anymore. I have really progressed so far now. But everytime I take a look back, I see how that day will always be round the corner if I mistake any step. Maybe I never really progressed afterall. Right at this point, I just want time to come to a standstill so that I can stay put and rest. I don't want time to remind me that I ought to keep going otherwise that meant I'm a weakling. I don't want time to remind me that staying put meant holding everyone back as that day unfolds again. I want time to stop so that only I exist as everyone awaits me to build myself up to continue going. Too bad time waits for no man.

This free fall is getting scarier, but somehow I will still have to deal with it. It's always a gamble against life, hopefully I'll win again this time.

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What I feel you should do, is not think.
Don't think about it. Don't overanalyse about it. What ifs, what might, it is gone alr.

Use the experience as a lesson for yourself to grow, and make sure this does not happen again.

Don't think back because this makes you only live in the past.
Live because you think for your future.
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:18 PM   #836
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Goodnight everyone, may everyone have restful sleep.
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:21 PM   #837
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It’s not mepick!
She is an extrovert and loud person haha. Cheerful.
im introvert not compatible
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:22 PM   #838
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Too toxic.
very true , thats y play with friends or mute all
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:23 PM   #839
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Then use 1 hand.
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Old 30-09-2018, 09:23 PM   #840
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Goodnight everyone, may everyone have restful sleep.
you too, sleeping early today for work tomolo
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