Hi please don't judge me. I just really couldn't take it anymore. All the years of physical and emotional abuse from my mother is growing a toll on me and making me suicidal. Her mood is unpredictable and she is angry for no reasons and would scream and slap me and pull my hair and bang my head against the wall for very, very small things. I am 25 years old this year, living with my single mother but I can feel myself dying inside everyday. She is a control freak to the point where I have no rights to say no or disagree with anything, if I disagreed, she gets violent. Yes she is still abusive towards me, even though I am an adult and quite frankly I am done with her erratic behaviour.
I want to move out, but I am afraid of what she will do when she finds me. I tried to discuss moving out with her few years ago but she locked me up for days, took my phone and all forms of communication. I did not dare to try again. Because I am working now, so my times at home are limited but during weekends if I am at home, she drives me crazy. Shouts and hits me for very small things like me not waking up to eat breakfast. This morning, at around 11am she yanked my hair and threw me to the floor from my bed cause she made breakfast and I am still sleeping. I keep my room locked but she has the key so its no use. Like she is just very, very bipolar. Sometimes she can be super nice to me but other times she acts really scary and crazy.
I'm thinking I'll pack up and quietly leave home during a day when she is not home. This is the only way I can think of that avoids a violent confrontation or me being locked up. But I am afraid of one thing, that she will track me down.
My mother knows my workplace and she will not hesitate to look for me at my workplace or make a scene or hit me in public (she has hit me in public before). One minute we were talking and the next she just gave me a slapped cause I spoke up for a stranger that bumped into her. I just told her the stranger was in a hurry, he didn't mean to, you are thinking too much. But she just, slapped me cause I was on the stranger's side? I am really, really afraid of what she will do if she finds me. Especially at my workplace.
Good news is, 31 March 2021 is my last day of work, although my boss did ask me to help for one more month cause they aee unable to find a replacement yet. I might plan my 'escape' after I have left the job so she will have less chances to find me.
Another thing is, my boyfriend and I will ROM around Mid April this year(next month). My mother doesn't know and does not approve. I do not plan to tell her the date because she will ruin it for sure. I will be moving in with my boyfriend's family. But once again, I am afraid my mother will somehow find my bf's family or home and make a big fuss or create a scene.
I am looking for advise on how to serve all ties with my mother and prevent her from finding me or coming near me. I do not have enough evidence for personal protection order although I do have some recordings of her shouting and screaming at me. I am honestly, very very afraid of what she will do once she found that I moved out. Afraid what she will do to my boyfriend and his family.
Please please advise me what I should do in my situation. No I don't want her arrested or anything, I just want to stay far far away from her and live my own life, but Singapore is so small.
I want to move out, but I am afraid of what she will do when she finds me. I tried to discuss moving out with her few years ago but she locked me up for days, took my phone and all forms of communication. I did not dare to try again. Because I am working now, so my times at home are limited but during weekends if I am at home, she drives me crazy. Shouts and hits me for very small things like me not waking up to eat breakfast. This morning, at around 11am she yanked my hair and threw me to the floor from my bed cause she made breakfast and I am still sleeping. I keep my room locked but she has the key so its no use. Like she is just very, very bipolar. Sometimes she can be super nice to me but other times she acts really scary and crazy.
I'm thinking I'll pack up and quietly leave home during a day when she is not home. This is the only way I can think of that avoids a violent confrontation or me being locked up. But I am afraid of one thing, that she will track me down.
My mother knows my workplace and she will not hesitate to look for me at my workplace or make a scene or hit me in public (she has hit me in public before). One minute we were talking and the next she just gave me a slapped cause I spoke up for a stranger that bumped into her. I just told her the stranger was in a hurry, he didn't mean to, you are thinking too much. But she just, slapped me cause I was on the stranger's side? I am really, really afraid of what she will do if she finds me. Especially at my workplace.
Good news is, 31 March 2021 is my last day of work, although my boss did ask me to help for one more month cause they aee unable to find a replacement yet. I might plan my 'escape' after I have left the job so she will have less chances to find me.
Another thing is, my boyfriend and I will ROM around Mid April this year(next month). My mother doesn't know and does not approve. I do not plan to tell her the date because she will ruin it for sure. I will be moving in with my boyfriend's family. But once again, I am afraid my mother will somehow find my bf's family or home and make a big fuss or create a scene.
I am looking for advise on how to serve all ties with my mother and prevent her from finding me or coming near me. I do not have enough evidence for personal protection order although I do have some recordings of her shouting and screaming at me. I am honestly, very very afraid of what she will do once she found that I moved out. Afraid what she will do to my boyfriend and his family.
Please please advise me what I should do in my situation. No I don't want her arrested or anything, I just want to stay far far away from her and live my own life, but Singapore is so small.
