meditation is something i tried for decades but still failing
i’ll go into anxiety mode
still trying, cos i know i need it
it’s ok,
@LoveLightLuCky sis, most ppl fail also. most gave up quickly, some hung on but basically sit down, close eyes n pretend they meditating, as I told Ec7171 bro, lol.
wow! decades, I salute your determination n persistence
maybe u doing it wrong n no one to teach n guide u properly. since i a bit good mood n in recognition of your laudable persistent efforts, i wot a bit
without knowing full circumstances n your background history, mental state, character, etc., best I can advise is start all over again from scratch.
start from learning n practicing progressive muscle relaxation techniques. i donno how to paste link in here but u can easily google up. once u adept at progressive muscle relaxation technique n it becomes like 2nd nature n u can easily transit into that relaxed mode; then start trying meditation again with the aforementioned exercise as prelude in each session. or u can try out both concurrently. experiment to find your comfort way n zone. there is no hard n fast, that’s why can’t really learn serious meditation from books or vids. only an experienced meditator or teacher irl can teach, point the way n provide tailored advice, guidance n instruction to suit the individual. Even the historical Buddha himself learnt from teachers, no csb, lol
tho some schools/ classes here do talk about n incorporate muscle relaxation technique in their classes, it’s usually glossed over n not emphasized much as their aim is mostly on teaching juz Buddhist meditation basics without the in depth tech know-how n maybe due to time factor n course duration.
if u do try it out, let me know how it goes.