Sloughing on a plastic chair, feet resting on the rail sees a panoramic view of Jurong Townhall estate extended to the southern islands from my Teban corridor. 
Northeast Monsoon prevailing wind gusting past my balls, I shudder at the thoughts of living such life.
At 44, most Singaporean men are at the epitome and at a pinnacle of their career. I am still confused and bewildered in the crowd. Hardware zone platform has been a haven, serves as an abode for a peasant me. I’m able to profess into a high net worth elite, an individual who lives in high end lifestyle, chic, relevant and financial free. I can draw the wildest imagination and attention from the fellow members and have them worshipping me like an idol.
I’m a nobody and a peasant. I have never indulged in luxury fine dining nor have a fulfilling and memorable travelling experience. The only furthest country I ever been, was Genting Highland with my parents and most of my life is circling inside Singapore. I have absolute zero idea and experience in living a true live of my own.
Whenever I read and see fanciful photo and food experience from fellow members from humble hokkien noodles to atas wagyu beef steak, the overly zealous and envious monster engulfed me. I was lost in the abyss of denial and deeply sunk into the bottom of the jealousy pool. I feel unbalanced. The only food that is a normalcy to me is none but the daily cai png staple.
I thought I can change the fate proactively; actively working and trawling hard with perseverance and grit towards my private housing dream. But I realize it is futile as the housing cost inflated higher and faster than my meager income. Again, I am caught in a vicious process where I start to be envious of high achiever in the property section in Hardware zone forum, when I attempt to join the interaction I was greeted with sarcasm and constantly disparaged by members. I felt disdain for my participation is taken lightly and often ridicule.
The desire of owning a private property is real, and inadvertently falling into a guise of lies and deception; an urge, yearning for the fellow members envious and attention. I lied and making up profoundly statement to prove my self-worth.
I cringed and cried at the Teban corridor, while the merciless monsoon wind continues gust my balls. I am feeling void, empty and devasted.
I am after all a peasant who has nothing to be proud of, nor have any achievement to sing about. I am a peasant who circle around Teban Pandan neighborhood and have never been to the bigger world other than the boundaryless Hardware zone forum.
Addendum: It is to the writer's attention there is a need to emphasize this fact about Broadwalk.
Broadwalk is a 44 year turning 45 year old single, available and virgin man, he is currently doing his RES course online and aspired to be a Professional Licensed Property Advisor by year 2022. His hobby is HWZ forum and his ideal woman in mind must have big breasts. Broadwalk has been an avid fan of big breasted women.
Northeast Monsoon prevailing wind gusting past my balls, I shudder at the thoughts of living such life. At 44, most Singaporean men are at the epitome and at a pinnacle of their career.
I am still confused and bewildered in the crowd. Hardware zone platform has been a haven, serves as an abode for a peasant me. I’m able to profess into a high net worth elite, an individual who lives in high end lifestyle, chic, relevant and financial free. I can draw the wildest imagination and attention from the fellow members and have them worshipping me like an idol. I’m a nobody and a peasant.
I have never indulged in luxury fine dining nor have a fulfilling and memorable travelling experience. The only furthest country I ever been, was Genting Highland with my parents and most of my life is circling inside Singapore. I have absolute zero idea and experience in living a true live of my own. Whenever I read and see fanciful photo and food experience from fellow members from humble hokkien noodles to atas wagyu beef steak, the overly zealous and envious monster engulfed me.
I was lost in the abyss of denial and deeply sunk into the bottom of the jealousy pool. I feel unbalanced. The only food that is a normalcy to me is none but the daily cai png staple. I thought I can change the fate proactively; actively working and trawling hard with perseverance and grit towards my private housing dream.
But I realize it is futile as the housing cost inflated higher and faster than my meager income. Again, I am caught in a vicious process where I start to be envious of high achiever in the property section in Hardware zone forum, when I attempt to join the interaction I was greeted with sarcasm and constantly disparaged by members. I felt disdain for my participation is taken lightly and often ridicule. The desire of owning a private property is real, and inadvertently falling into a guise of lies and deception; an urge, yearning for the fellow members envious and attention.
I lied and making up profoundly statement to prove my self-worth. I cringed and cried at the Teban corridor, while the merciless monsoon wind continues gust my balls.
I am feeling void, empty and devasted. I am after all a peasant who has nothing to be proud of, nor have any achievement to sing about.
I am a peasant who circle around Teban Pandan neighborhood and have never been to the bigger world other than the boundaryless Hardware zone forum. Addendum: It is to the writer's attention there is a need to emphasize this fact about Broadwalk.
Broadwalk is a 44 year turning 45 year old single, available and virgin man, he is currently doing his RES course online and aspired to be a Professional Licensed Property Advisor by year 2022.
His hobby is HWZ forum and his ideal woman in mind must have big breasts. Broadwalk has been an avid fan of big breasted women.
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