some serious advice
1. stop holding on to past memories like watching wedding photos. its not gonna help
2. speak with your wife if she is open to mediation and reach out to MSF. they have professional marriage counsellers. not sure how much but i remb its free. if it fails;
3. move out of your home. fk it, move back to your parents if need be. staying in your marriage home is depressing
4. find a good divorce lawyer to speak to so that u and your wife can get a uncontested divorce. trust me u DO NOT want to go into a contested divorce unless u feeling v rich or your assets alot to fight over
5. maintain a "professional" relationship with your wife still since u have kids