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'I prefer death over living with the memories', says taxi driver who caused fatal accident after passing out
Once an independent man who worked the night shift seven days a week over the last 21 years, Mr How Yuen Fah now sits listlessly in front of the television at home, worrying about how to make ends meet.ST PHOTO: JANICE TAI
SINGAPORE - Taxi driver How Yuen Fah felt a sharp pain in his right abdomen and struggled to keep his eyes open while driving along Queensway during peak hours one evening.
By the time Mr How, then 72, signalled to turn right at the Queensway junction on March 22, his eyes had completely shut.
When he woke up in the hospital, he found out that he had a tumour in his liver which suddenly ruptured, causing him to black out while driving.
But there was worse news. Mr How was told that he had killed someone.
After he lost consciousness, his taxi knocked down a 66-year-old pedestrian who died of a head injury.
"I was totally shocked and could not speak. I prefer death than this. Every day I will think about how could I have killed someone," Mr How told The Straits Times on Friday (Sept 20).
On Wednesday, the coroner ruled that the woman's death was an unfortunate traffic misadventure, as the doctor clarified that the tumour rupture caused severe bleeding in Mr How's abdomen and a loss of blood flow to his brain, leading him to lose consciousness.
It was not mentioned in court documents if any action will be taken against Mr How, who has lost his driving licence.
Once an independent man who worked the night shift seven days a week over the last 21 years, Mr How now sits listlessly in front of the television at home, worrying about how to make ends meet.
"I am very disappointed. What happened is a triple blow to me - killing someone, learning I have cancer and now I am jobless," said Mr How, who is married to a hotel receptionist. They have two children.
Not that he is in the mood to drive again, he clarified. Each time he has to cross a road or when he sees an elderly pedestrian, memories of the accident would come flooding back, sending "shock waves into his heart".
He could not bring himself to read about the accident in the newspapers until a few days after. When he eventually did, it was only for a short while. He could not go on after reading that the victim was "a doting mother".
He has not contacted her family as he does not know what to say to them.
"It is very hard. Saying sorry also has no meaning because a life is already gone," said Mr How, who is a free thinker.
He has gone for a few sessions of counselling at the hospital and his Catholic relatives have also given him items such as a rosary which they hope could help him find peace.
While guilt continues to rack him, Mr How said he could not have done anything differently on that fateful day.
He had just started his shift at 6.30pm and picked up three passengers at a taxi stand along Bishan Road.
He was driving past Lornie Road when he felt a sharp pain in his right abdomen that subsequently went away. While travelling along Commonwealth Avenue West towards Queensway, he felt the pain again.
This time, on a scale of 10, the pain increased from a five to an eight.
He started breaking out in cold sweat and his vision became blur. He reached for medicated oil and applied it on his temples and nose.
"It was evening peak hour and there were many cars behind me. I could not have suddenly changed lane and stopped at the side. Seeing that we were fast reaching the destination, I signalled right and I don't remember anything that happened after that," said Mr How.
The passenger next to him noticed that his eyes had closed and quickly swung the steering wheel to the left to prevent the cab from crashing into the car in front at the traffic junction.
The taxi later swerved to the right, picked up speed and collided into at least three pedestrians, including Madam Tng Yew Huay, who died in hospital.
Mr How woke up momentarily to hear the passenger shouting at him and to see the windscreen shattered. The taxi came to a stop when it mounted a kerb.
"When I see the videos of what happened later on, I also scared. It is not myself, it is not my way of driving," he added.
After he was admitted to the hospital on March 22, doctors found out that a tumour in his liver had ruptured - causing him to lose consciousness at the wheel.
A surgery was done immediately to treat the bleeding. Two months later, he went through a keyhole surgery to remove affected parts of the liver so that the cancer will not spread to the rest of the body.
His condition is being monitored now through periodic CT scans.
The tumour, and its subsequent rupturing in the liver, came as a surprise to Mr How because he has had no major health issues since a brush with prostate cancer in 2005.
He was due to travel to Thailand with friends for a holiday that weekend but instead woke up in a hospital bed.
Said Mr How: "My friends and family tell me don't think so much, it is not my fault. But the mind is mine and I have a steady mind and a good memory, so how to forget?"
https://www.straitstimes.com/singap...he-memories-says-taxi-driver-who-caused-fatal