As newly weds, we tried special things. We put the bed right next to the full height glass panel. Sometimes we would sleep without the curtains drawn – with city lights below the only illumination into the bedroom. It was breathtaking..
“Do you know I can do it with one smooth stroke?” I asked her.
“Do what?” she asked.
“This,” I replied. My hand glided gently across the back of her T-shirt and tapping it momentarily. Her bra became unhooked.
“How did you do that? I did not know it was possible!”
“Comes with practice. I told you that are you not the first right?”. She smiled. We were open about our past relationships. She knew about all of them though she does not like the details. I also do not like to know what she had done with her previous boy friends. We have a new beginning. A new life ahead of us. We need to look ahead and move forward. I learnt that.
“This is fine. As long as you keep our marriage pure and no hanky panky outside it.” I cannot agree more.
On weekends, we tried different cuisines from the many cookbooks we bought. We had a fully equipped kitchen. It was heavens.
For the first time in my life – I felt I could love and behave freely with no guilty feeling as I had before with the other girls. With the ones before, there was always this gnawing feeling of “is she the right one”. But now – I can put all that behind me.
For the first time I want to plan far ahead – with her of course. And I felt with confidence that I can do it. We planned how many children to raise, when we will buy what kind of car, what kind of home do we want for the future. The future looks good and bright.
Soon after, she resigned and took up a part time job. We planned to have a family soon to “complete” our idea of marriage.
We were blessed that she was pregnant soon after. Within four years of our wedding, our first born arrived. Our good friends and family members taught two fumbling new parents how to care for the baby, how to read the baby’s needs and wants and how to feed it. It was such great joy we had. We are proud parents.
Of course, the caring took a toll on us too. More her than me. A lot of care, attention and effort are needed for the new born. She started her usual eight weeks of maternity leave while I got back to work within a week. We got help from my mother and we hired a maid as well. Life was good.
In the blink of an eye, more than a decade had passed. The work and enlarged family is drawing a lot of my energy but I am very happy. At long last, I felt I have true earthly happiness. She was one of the best things that happened to me. And even if I could change the past I would not. I am very happy the way things are now. I feel very blessed and I have no regrets.
Looking back now, it was so many years since the first love and first break up. Life is made up of precious memories such as these that make it more meaningful and memorable and they are mine to keep and cherish. I write my memories here before they fade into oblivion.
Through his eyes
I tell my stories.
In his eyes
I see true love.
