TS, u need help. I recommend you talk to social worker and seek help. Or talk to your parents or your best friend, someone you can really trust . You will not be able to control yourself.
Ask this person to control your finances. Cancel all your credit cards and credit lines. Close all your bank accounts except one and move all your cash there. pass that only atm card to your friend. Pass your ic and passport to your friend too. He will withdraw money for u weekly for your weekly expenses. Set some goals. Running is usually the easiest. Eg run 10km in 50 min. Do 200 push ups in a go. Just keep on running during your free time or do push ups.
accept it as a fact these money is gone forever, stolen by the satan himself, and trying to get it back will further ruin your life, your family and everything that matters.
Obviously since Jan, you have been continuously thinking and thinking and thinking. It has consumed you... the what ifs and analysing where u could have better more accurately bet. Were there any signs to indicate you could have bet on the banker instead of player... what strategy to employ.
There is no strategy. There is only the fact that a gambler will only stop when he has gambled away everything. Cos a gambler when hes winning will continue gambling, thinking he can game the system... the only time he will really stop is when he has gambled away everything.
TS, now u still have some savings, u think it's ok. At most if i lose this 10k, I will stop buying new hps for the next 10 years. Then another 10k, u will say i will stop eating restaurant food for another 10 years etc etc, trying to justify these are money you can lose... and when u finally lose all your money, u will definitely start to use your credit cards. Each credit card and credit line can give u a loan of 10k at least. You maxed out your current 5 banks credit card, that's 50k. Surely u will go back there to gamble again. And 100% chop you will lose all the money. And you will then apply for the other banks credit cards... probably can apply another 7 more banks... by then you would have owed at least 130k from banks.... it will only get worse.
You cant do it alone. You need help.