Everyday I'm thinking about the same thing. I just got in two weeks ago and I'm dreading everyday. Its so much tougher and hardcore over here that i just can't take it.
Is it possible to down pes due to dislocated shoulder before? Life inside here is so much worse than i thought it'll be.
Hi TS, what is this 'tougher and hardcore' that you can't take? Are you struggling physically or is it just the regimentation and discipline you cannot accept?
I used to be under one of the toughest and most siao on PC in OCS. We were constantly punished over the slightest bit of mistake.
One person moving in a file? Knock it down. Not signing loud enough while marching? Drop 20. Area cleaning not good enough? Carry on.
But to me it's always mind over body. Your mind is so much stronger than your body and this is exactly what OCS is training you to be. Pushups? I see them as a form of exercise, not punishment. Try to develop a positive mindset and know that you will always have your buddy beside you swimming in the same sh!t.
Looking back now, it's all worth it. 5 years after I graduate from OCS, I'm still waking at 0515, still making my bed each time I wake, ready and out of house by 0545 for my routine run. I never regretted going through OCS.
Take time to consider this carefully and good luck!