Thanks to all for the replies
maybe it’s just me seeing my neighbour sometimes.
The son is married with kids, weekends he will come back visit his parents (my neighbours) then his parents are healthy, so they can chit chat (3 generations together), sometimes go out together etc.
Whereas for me is nothing. No wife no gf. At home sometimes I try to talk to my dad but not much response (he has dementia and hard of hearing). My married sibling hardly visits or asks how my dad n how I’m doing. friends mostly busy with own work or married lives. can get super lonely sia.
some of u say dont need gf de la, no need friends de la, come to earth alone go back alone, alone then got freedom bla bla bla
but i realise i dont really have much time for myself either
maybe cuz im trying to do a lot for my dad, maybe im trying to make my helper's life as easy as possible cuz i know its not easy for her as weekdays im away for work so she one persom take care of my dad not
easy, plus she also does some housework, so i also try to help her whenever i can, i try to do some housework myself, but end up i feel very burnt out sia. not to mention that my job requires me to bring work home to do during weekends.
i feel im doing a lot for others but im not getting anything in return. i know if i wanna do things for others i shouldnt expect anything back, but still will feel tired.