SuddenlyFeelSleepy
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Today I go home after work, while sitting on the MRT train feel depressed.
My colleagues were talking about girls and drinking. I BBFA never had girlfriend before never had sex before and never drink before. My colleagues gossiping say this girl from other department damn chio/hot, that girl from that department they managed to talk to her and jio her.. then I sit there just keep quiet. Then deep down I feel damn depressed because I feel like I got no chance at all with any of the girls.
What's worse is I'm about 1.68m only and a lot of my colleagues are taller than me. Then everytime I feel ***** inferior. And I'm not fit also, dont play any sports or activities while my colleagues outside got a lot of activities and sports one.
Then sometimes my colleagues crack some jokes but is making fun of me one, then I just laugh along but deep inside I feel angry and disrespected.
Today I going home that time, while during my walk and during my mrt ride I just keep thinking about all these.. then I feel ***** depressed.
Then I try and console myself, say aiya.. is work only so I just go work collect my pay and fk off, don't need think so much about what colleagues say. But then my whole life, I also had that kind of mentality.. even during my schooling days. Then end up, I am forever alone, no friends, never had a girlfriend before. When I sit on the MRT or walk outside and see so many chio girls I feel dam sad again. Why can't I even get any one of them to be my girlfriend.
Haiz. Just depressed af right now.
My colleagues were talking about girls and drinking. I BBFA never had girlfriend before never had sex before and never drink before. My colleagues gossiping say this girl from other department damn chio/hot, that girl from that department they managed to talk to her and jio her.. then I sit there just keep quiet. Then deep down I feel damn depressed because I feel like I got no chance at all with any of the girls.
What's worse is I'm about 1.68m only and a lot of my colleagues are taller than me. Then everytime I feel ***** inferior. And I'm not fit also, dont play any sports or activities while my colleagues outside got a lot of activities and sports one.
Then sometimes my colleagues crack some jokes but is making fun of me one, then I just laugh along but deep inside I feel angry and disrespected.
Today I going home that time, while during my walk and during my mrt ride I just keep thinking about all these.. then I feel ***** depressed.
Then I try and console myself, say aiya.. is work only so I just go work collect my pay and fk off, don't need think so much about what colleagues say. But then my whole life, I also had that kind of mentality.. even during my schooling days. Then end up, I am forever alone, no friends, never had a girlfriend before. When I sit on the MRT or walk outside and see so many chio girls I feel dam sad again. Why can't I even get any one of them to be my girlfriend.
Haiz. Just depressed af right now.